what if he did not passed away..
would i still be ignorant to everything, taking things for granted?
I may very well still do..

but the fact remains that he will never return home anymore. no matter how i wish/pray, he will never do..

every night, I will think back on things,
that's always on my mind..
unable to sleep
after minutes, or maybe even close to an hour.

~~~~~

I haven't been blogging for the past few days
due to my router's adapter..
it spoilt 'cos my brother accidentally kicked it.
then, the whole house went dark..
BLACKOUT
then, it was the eve of CNY..
my mum's siblings & my cousins were at my house.
w/o a torch, I climbed up & switched on the electricity

we ate DUAN YUAN FAN on the eve of CNY.
we drank peppermint alcoholic drink
we celebrated wendy kim kim's b-day
(note: kim kim is how i address my mum's bro's wife)
ケーキは美味いし～

1st day of CNY
waited for my uncle to fetch us to my 2nd yi ma's house
had lunch there.. 食料も美味いし～
my uncle whom I worked for, keep on making fun of me!
T__T
so I did likewise to him XD
(btw, he was the one who fetched us to 2nd yi ma's house)
once again, got a lift to my 5th grand aunt's house(dad's side)
ok, I think every year(or should i say whenever they see my teeth), they will always talk about them
I am also a bit tired of it..
I should be going for treatment soon
my aunt(dad's sis) & her husband had to wait for us there..
b4 they brought us to 5th grand uncle's house..
I think he's the 5th one if i am not wrong..
my grandfather has a lot of siblings (I don't even know some of them)
my uncle fetched us home from there..
really thank you..

2nd day of CNY
I AM SICK!
felt really uncomfortable in the morning
T___T
went to my babysitter's house (heard that she was already 80+ yrs old,i call her ah po), after sitting for a long time, stood up to have buffet lunch,
walked to the buffet table.. my cousin asked me if i was alright..
It's been a long time since we last talked.. I think is either the different gender/the age..
I suddenly felt really dizzy, the feeling of wanting to faint..
I managed to reach the seat on time..
& instantly felt a little better..

ah po helped rub medicated oil on my forehead.. her hands are still really strong!
She even massaged my back.. to think I forget to thank her @@

ACTUALLY I WANTED TO PLAY MAHJONG ON THIS DAY!
since I was sick, once I reached home, I slept from 3pm all the way til morning..

SUN (10/02/08)
I FINALLY LEARNT THE BASIC SKILLS OF MAHJONG!
& it's really addictive..

shall blog next time
the entry is getting super long..